Zwolle, Holland , 28/3/98

Someone, somewhere in Italy is expecting me to admit my crimes.I'm sure someone in Holland too; it would be much easier to deal politically and juridically with the matter. Well... juridically, probably, would not change anything. Holland will send me away anyhow. But if I would admit my "sins", then it would have been even a moral justification for the law's application. Okay! Here is my admission. Open your ears mr. hunters!! An article on one of the most known newspapers of Holland, came out about me and more in general my situation. I was not expecting any interview, so it caught me suddenly. I did not read the article. Yes, but I guess who wrote it did not tell what mostly I care to say. Which is: I'm Paola, I'm anarchist and I'm not the only one to be involved in this situation. The matter will not stop (end) whether I would go out jail or not. It would not end even if all the anarchists in Italy would be set free. It would be great, it would be full of joy.... but it would not mean that the "case" is closed, that our struggle is over. The mater is, of course, also about many years of jail for many of us but I like to underline also. The real matter, to me, is the impeachment of being an anarchist organisation - the state can't deal in a different way against social conflicts. the state is an organisation, the organisation in itself. I would, without any doubt, add: The criminal and The terrorist one. So how can we expect the gentle members of this organisation dealing with conflicts in a different way, reacting to their enemies in different way? Just persecuting them by using the very narrow mind that always they having been using in earlier oppressions. It seems easy to apply, it does not include many risks. A terroristic armed band would scare till dead anyone. Would (and often unfortunately does) bring people to go looking for a safe shelter among the snaky embrace of mama State, which will protect them from those who attempt to the peaceful, and more or less, well planned lives. Getting an easy consent which will allow the power and its law to proceed in the well known dirty way of pushing down the rebellion and those who dare to rebel. Shit, even not fantasy gentlemen, what a bloody deja vu!!! Just look around, look in the past.... always the same, always the same. Some intellectual who writes on a quite well known dutch 'actie blad' (sorry guy... but I really can not forget it) fell into the trap (by the way... are you still in it??). I remember a while ago I asked whether an article about the repression against the Italian anarchists could be published on this newspaper of the movement and the answer was a hesitating yes but before it needed to be known what kind of anarchist organisation it was (all article was based on the reasons which denied the existence of the organisation)... because if the state persecute anarchists so heavily it "may' mean that this organisation did something which caused the rage of the state and its repression. Dear intellectual, I take the chance to answer you now (that my situation the personal one I mean, is definitely clear), to you and to a journalist of the Volkskrant (who, by the way, put to me more or less the same questions): I'm not a violent person, my nature is not a violent one. But... if I feel attacked and violated, certainly I react. And in this system I may feel many times like that and not only in a direct personal level. The societies, how they are organised, based on violence, abuses, murders, genocides, poisons, pollution which causes diseases which cause death, hunger, wars and I could on and on although the pain that I do feel by mentioning all of it, only by mentioning. I answer to you and to who is still questioning about the use of violence. Why would you never ask it to a judge, or a politician, or to a bank manager, or to a policeman, or to a soldier who's defending the mother soil. Or, (I make it more complicate) why don't you ask to a "normal" citizen who pays regularly taxes, who works daily as employed in a bank, whether he's a violent or not. Someone who is supporting violence while is hiding himself behind a desk in a bank's office's room, or in a juridical court room. All responsibles of all this violence with an appearance of clean faces and hands. Those people who know, must know what a bank is there for. What the movements of capitals are causing to our world, our lives. Because any single person should start to questioning himself to find out his own responsibilities and then starting a process to be able to know how to deal with those. Why you journalist just don't ask to everybody about violence and not only to a supposed member of a terrorist organisation? !! I make it clear now forever,, I'm ready to attack the violence of the power.... I was, I am, I'm willing to be in a future. Now my dear journalists and judges: is that not a nice confession?? Are in it enough reasons to make me spend all my life in jail and to justify the actual persecution toward Paola the anarchist "witch" and all of them who think the same? Are there enough reasons to justify a trial which is made by even not so well prepared to their roll (but certainly well paid and protect) witnesses or police's collaborators (however we like to call them) and inexistent evidences? I see.... there are reasons enough for you.... (I hope I've to adress this last sentence of mine just to the "judgement sector".)

Anyhow I like to play my part in it, till the end. So listen to me, listen very good please: I'm an anarchist (yes! again!) and I will never ever organise myself following your example, gentle State members. Organizations, armed bands are not on my way, in my way, in my methods, they don't belong my aim, my fight, my being. That's just your way and keep it like this!! I will never, I never did belong, any structure, because any kind of organisation is a structure which kills the fantasy, the spontaneity, the joy of my struggle. I care very much about my being able to join any struggle I find interesting, moving myself in any field I like to move in, to connect myself to anyone I feel to. I like to join all these things always in my own way, without any kind of "specialisation" of a role, any leader..... room, room for my creativity - that's me and also many of the anarchists who are involved in this persecution. I'm ready to accept their criticism because I feel I'm arrogating myself to express their own point of view. By making up a phantasmal anarchist organisation from us, the aim is threaten our lives and destroy the dangers that practising the anarchy (in this way?) brings to the power. I put "(in this way?)" because personally I don't see other ways. We are not easy to controll, we are like many potential explotions of rebellious lives, we could be everywhere and anywhere. Our rebellion can touch more fields and more and more people. The alternative which this rebellion propose (in opposition to the schematic way of bringing/carrying on conflicts into an organisation) is too exciting and challenging for those who are not afraid to dare. And for those who work in - for and aside of the system, not easy to repress. So need of the State is to reduce all this challenge to a mere matter: organisation. How limited you are gentlemen! No, that is really too much for me. Don't attempt to my dignity, because I care of it much more than what you think, much more. Don't try to give of me and other anarchists the image of someone whose aim is to replace you by using that same way you adopt. That is for my enemies and for who want to know who I'm (more or less eh??) before to decide to take any shy step, "kind of" side. For those who came out and close to me/us before this letter of mine, for those who will never stop the searching, who feel the endless inner and outer struggle. For those who will stay aware about what's happening, even when Paola will be set out of Holland country; for those who will feel and understand that the matter of today, of this "info-avond" belongs a largest matter: Italy, Holland, Europe and wider and wider; for those who are not making a temporary folkloristic struggle of those matters, but are here because they want to share also with me the struggle and feeling more or less the same.... for you all my solidarity and much much more. Sooner or later I'll go to Italy, after 7 years having been in Holland. It teaches me how much my "home" is a place without a name, without a flag. Moving away again.... with the strong feeling of having found and shared "my" home there where "my" people are. People who are not ready to give up, not yet.

I would like to share also a beer with you now, honestly.

So Proost to the Anarchy.

Paola Lovecchio